I always wondered if the day would come and I would hear the doctor say, “you have abnormal cells on your pap smear.” It was May, 2019 and not something anyone wants to hear. It is confusing to say the least and the young lady on the phone, who called on a Saturday when non one else was in, wouldn’t elaborate only to tell me to schedule an appointment to see the doctor so she could explain the results to me.
This bothered me immensely and in my opinion is a poor way to tell someone about a health scare. So I called the clinic first thing Monday morning and insisted I speak with the doctor on the phone. She finally called me back to tell me I had low grade squamous cells (LSIL) that could be pre-cancerous. I know exactly where I was and the time of day. My heart pounded, I felt light headed, my pulse racing, spinning thoughts and I pressed on for more information. I was told I need to go to a Colposcopy clinic where they specialize in this sort of thing and an appointment was made for June 22, 2019.
They were amazing at the Colposcopy clinic in Calgary. So supportive and informative. I spoke with a nurse who explained my results and was a little upset my doctor told me it was pre-cancerous. She said that was wrong and that my results showed a change in cells that were low grade. I was also HPV positive. This rocked my world. My mind reeled re-living my sexual past and condemning myself for my at times, erratic behavior. I was 56 years old and my very first abnormal Pap with HPV. As I said to start with, I wondered when this day would happen. My boyfriend of 10 years was incredibly promiscuous in his life prior to me and with me. I still believe more so than what he has told me to date. All I am aware of are 2 sex workers in 2014 while with me and I completely believe today that is where this has come from. Never had an abnormal Pap until Tim.
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