In my previous post I decided to write about my trip to Kelowna with my grown daughter who lives overseas working towards a career she will be proud of. I loved writing it, it made me think about my daughter over the years and how very proud of all she has accomplished in such a short time.
I am not always proud of my parenting skills of yesteryear and still feel much guilt over the ways I lost my cool or plainly misbehaved towards my children. But I cannot change anything. What I can do is be the kind of mother my children enjoy and actually want to be around, not the one they avoid at all costs. And as fortune has it, my kids still talk to me 🙂
To be honest I felt proud writing about our trip together and even posted a few pics of our adventures in August. So I thought I would share the article with my daughter and told her of my website. But as I was telling her I instantly thought about the content and how she might feel about it. Then I found myself thinking about all the negative content I had on my blog and it paints me as angry and bitter, not something I want to be remembered as. You know, that middle aged negative woman who seems to think of life as nothing but unfair and negative and where the human race is the enemy. The thought of my daughter reading this truly bothered me. I want to empower her and her siblings, to show them life has so many wonders and mysteries just awaiting their discovery. I need to be much more positive and remember there are amazing and beautiful things in this life we share together. And most of all, be a positive force, not one they avoid.
So I am going to incorporate much more fun and enlightening content hopefully making you think of the many blessing we share every day. That is not to say I will give up sharing my thoughts on things I am passionate about or attempt to invoke just a little change, but I see first hand how I need to see what is truly important.
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